For What do I Mourning?

to truly yourn for what has been not willingly, but by ones own choice reliquished. what is the point of it? a connection between the important and myself has not been severed so what is there to truly mourn like i know i do?

Is this what we now have, just some bastard form of what once was? or is it that i mourn on a much more basic, primative, selfish level? Is it the exclusive rights i am mourning? Then why would all the songs and various declerations of my feelings cause the tears to flow and my muscles all one great painful knot. No...it is not for those rights that i mourn...

Perhaps...perhaps it is for fear that i should for the loss of deeper effections that i mourn, forgetting for me and instead given to another...Yes this is, not some want opr a selfish feeling of ownership that makes me shake at night, makes my heart feel as if the cracks and scars already formed shall finally touched and cause me to fall to pieces in its image......